On your mark...get set...GO!!

Yikes...I started running again today. It was rough! But I went and that is more than I have done since September! Sad but true. My weight is about the same, no change which is better than a gain. I just wish there was some loss. I haven't been as dedicated every single day. I am doing okay, but have my moments of pure weakneass. I love the warmer weather and the opportunity to be out in it. I am shopping smarter and if it isn't here, I cannot eat it. The hard part is if you get busy or are running late and have created a family that is ready to eat at 6:00...sometimes fast food and pizza are what we end up with. I am committed to this and will continue one day at a time. I know that I may fail somedays and others I will succeed. My goal is not to be high school skinny again. I would have to begin dancing 5 days a week again! And let's face it, after 2 pregnancies and 3 babies, there is no way I can move like that with out leaking just a little....hahaha! My goal is to be healthy and to be able to wear the clothes hanging in my closet! I want to feel sexy and pretty and not be worried about a muffin top hanging over my pants.

Coke is a drug!

Yeah I said it...and you know that I totally mean Coke-a-Cola and not cocaine! Although the latter is true as well.

After a weekend of the best diet ever...competition diet...no time to leave the convention center for anything. No time to stop and eat anyway and when I wanted to eat, concession stand food was NOT what I desired. So I survived the weekend on $4.00 cokes. Nope no diet coke for me...yuck! I even refrained from the king size reese's peanut butter cups...Now that is discipline! On the way home we stopped to eat real food. Our stop at the Olive Garden, which is not my favorite restaurant, I opted for the grilled salmon with steamed broccoli. That being said. I rocked that weekend.

This week, I was not so good. I continued with the cokes and know that they make me feel good during the moment, but regret it for the rest of the day. Being that I was gone for the previous weekend, I never made it to the grocery store and as a result, we had pizza, zaxby's, french fries, girl scout cookies, even a double doozie etc...! Now I am feeling lousy! I have had heart burn, which I used to only get when I was pregnant...oh wait, I weighed this when I was pregnant. I have to be honest and say that I have not gotten on the scale this week. I just know that I can feel a difference in how I feel. I began today eating better again. I did okay during the daytime, but dinner was and is often my downfall.

A minor set back, but on the whole, I am down 8 lbs total since I began. I am afraid to see how much I put on this week so I chose to remain ignorant. What we don't know won't hurt us right!

Here is to a minor set back and future weight loss, cause summer is around the corner and I am fairly certain that I will not be able to squeeze into any shorts that I currently own!

okay I have totally neglected my blog... sorry!!

A new month, a new day, a new week. And still in pursuit of the new me! I am down
7lbs!! Not as drastic as the first 2 weeks but still persuing the ultimate goal. My skinny self is still not quite within reach, but the fact that I am still losing is good enough for me. I have changed my thinking too. It have thought back to those moments in life when I was satisfied with my body. That would have to be high school and college days. When I was active! I am ready for the warmer weather so that I can resume running. I love it when I can get it in. I also began thinking, it took me 3 1/2 years to put this weight on...it is going to take some time to take it off. I have managed to lose weight all while celebrating 4 birthdays, and girl scout cookie season!!! That is a victory all in itself!

Weight watchers meals and yogurts are easy. I can eat a yogurt for breakfast and a soup for lunch and have only used a total of 1-2 points! That leaves me some room to eat whatever I fix for dinner. I do use all ground turkey these days and not ground beef. I have switched to whole grain breads if I eat a sandwich or peanut butter bread. I try and balance any carb with a protein. I learned that when I had gestational diabetes. The only carbs I eat alone are fresh fruit. I try to snack on apples or bananas.

Okay so last night I totally cheated...I ate a 1 point yogurt for dinner so that I could eat a double doozie for dinner! And it was awesome.

I am in desperate need of some physical exercise and am not getting it. Okay yes so I teach dance, unfortunately all my classes, except for 2 are in the final stages of dance competition...therefore I am sitting and watching instead of dancing with them. My preshcool and primary give me an hour each of constant motion but it is just enough to break a sweat.

I will try and do better with the posting...but I am not making any promises. Life gets pretty crazy around here.

Fat Tuesday!

So in my world...today was my FAT TUESDAY! I blew it in every sense of the word today. It all began with 2, yes 2, chocolate glazed doughnuts. Then to lunch after church with the fam, at Moe's. I had a steak, cheese, rice and lettuce. I had a few chips, but did not have the cheese dip. I did however have a real coke with several refills...Then a lovely dinner at home. Baked talapia, broiled shrimp dipped in melted butter, steamed spinach, rice, strawberries (that yes, I dipped and covered in chocolate-YUMMM). I ended it all with a cupcake!

I feel lousy. I am back on tomorrow in full swing. I will not be participating in the infamous fat Tuesday feast this week and will move straight into the lenten season. What am I giving up? I am not yet sure. Since I have given up so many unhealthy things I now realize that not only do they make me feel bad, but it changes my attitude. I never realized that it directly related to my mood, but after a day with little water, I can absolutely tell a difference in how uncomfortable I am. So back to the grind. I am down 5 still and don't want to backtrack. One day of binging was enough for me.

Oh and Happy Fat Valentines! haha!

Weekend, failure or success!!!

So the truth be told, the weekend is most often my downfall. I try and take some time off from cooking and cleaning and do what is easy. So how did I fair??? Well Friday was the snow day that we wait for for many years. I enjoyed every minute of it. I ate 2 small sausage buscuits for breakfast. Not great but not awful either in the weight loss world. Then skipped snacks and went straight to lunch. I ate some leftover baked ziti. I used whole grain pasta and turkey. Then the snow began to fall right before Avery got off the bus! We had a grand time getting cold and wet. Snowball fights and attepmting a snowman. We gave up because it was mostly dirt and we decided to wait until Saturday. I did have a delicious cup of hot chocolate after we came in. Dinner, okay I couldn't change it. Friday night is pizza night here at our house and I truely love pizza. So I had 2 peices of pepperoni, with tea sweetened with Splenda! No coke! Saturday was a great day! I got up and made a 2 egg omlet with cheese. Weight watchers yogurt for lunch. Then I got Zaxby's for dinner...I got a salad, not the chicken fingers I sooooo love! I am happy to announce that as of today I am down 5 pounds!!! Yay me! It is so far all related to portion control. I know that it won't come off as quickly after this week of period and antibiotics, but it sure is nice to begin on a high! Now I am even more encouraged and hop that tomorrow, Valentines day, I can be good! I did get some cupcakes for dessert, but also got some strawberries! I will be good, I will be good, I think I can, I think I can...Wish me luck!!!

Well I did okay today...

So the morning began with a bowl of grape nuts with honey on them. Warm and yummy. Water to drink since I am out of my favorite hot tea. Then on to lunch where I had my weight watchers soup. Chicken with wild rice and veggies. They are right tastey I might add. I did have 2 diet cokes today. Snack time was a some string cheese and a handful of glazed almonds. Dinner...Arby's...So I decided to forgo the favorite deep fried potatoe cakes and had just the roast beef sandwich, no soda, just water! I also treated myself to a red heart shaped lollipop. A little valentines treat. So not a great day in the world of dieting, but not the worst either. I did turn down a chocolate cookie offered to me by one of my students tonight. There is where my downfall tends to stem from, a little here and there may not hurt, but it is most definately not helping the cause so why even bother!!

I Know that this is a dull and short one, but I am spent! I am feeling better though.

and so I ate some chocolate ice cream!

So after a busy morning, a yummy breakfast of whole grain bread with peanut butter and banana slices and some hot tea. I headed off to bible study. Where I spent some much needed time with my ladies and my God! It was good like always.

I have had some time to contemplate some things. I always swore I would never be that mom that lived in sweats and my hair in a pony tail. Well my motto these days is the baggier the better! I have completely left the woman's department and moved on the to the men's sweats. Let's face it, the have more belly room and pockets! Nor do they cling to my unsightly mid section that I am so appalled by. They are way roomier in the backside as well so I can wear my granny panties, (which I also swore I would NEVER own!) and be totally and completely comfortable.

But the last 2 days I have done well. I decided today that since I wasn't that hungry at lunch I would opt for yogurt. And I snacked on some string cheese and a handfull of almonds. I have increased my water intake as well and am noticing a significant difference in how I feel at the end of the day. Then I baked some chicken and served it with corn, steamed broccoli and pasta with parmesean cheese. I made my portions the same size as the kids for the pasta and used 1/4 of the plate to fill with vegies and protein. I did actually have 2 small scoops if chocolate ice cream. Ant they were worth every calorie I saved today! It was almost heavenly.

So tomorrow will be the true test, when I step on the scale. I was blessed this week with my period and a prescription for augmentin which is tough on the stomach...so as a result, I was down 2 pounds as of yesterday! Now if I could get the cough to go away the exercise portion will begin!

Losing it one day and one pound at a time!